Tagged: pathos

February 3rd, 2009

Demolition Love

 demolition-love

“It’s okay, pigeon.  I love you!”

            The pigeon teeters up the stone pathway in the park.  He is missing a foot, and several toes on the remaining one.  His wings cleave to his body like heavy things.  He is coated in oil, cooking half his feathers black.  When he opens his mouth, only an intemperate bird wheeze rattles out.

            “Nobody else loves you!”

            The man staggers behind the pigeon on the pathway, giving the bird room.  He half-uses a crutch under one arm, and over the other is slung a plastic bag of worldly possessions.  His limbs dangle from his body like relinquished things.  He is steeped in grease, carrying his odor like a real live aura.  When he opens his mouth, a scratchy bellow rings.

            “Nobody else loves you, pigeon, but I do!”

February 3rd, 2009

The Pathos of Reality TV

 

 

I watched 8 hours of America’s Next Top Model yesterday.  I feel bad about myself, but actually I feel great about myself.  Because I so deeply out-specimen those tender-headed hustles of humanity.  From the vantage inside my eyes it makes perfect sense.  It doesn’t feel wrong, it feels like a warm homing of self-worth.  And it makes me a comparative shopper at the well of well-being.  Willing to be just a less bruised lemon.

            I don’t think superiority works.  Equivalence isn’t exactly a measure.  That’s why a part of you feels dirty even though it’s clear shame lives for the other side of the screen.  Truth is, that intellectual deadweight?  Has accomplished more than I ever have: for all her love of TV, she has gotten herself the fuck on it.  What do I love, have I laid my flickering image on it?

            Reality TV is the cheeseburger of psychic fixes.  A step back really, for the way it so readily invites distillation of us and them.  I couldn’t promise to acquit myself anymore amiably, if a TV camera were to cling to my everyday epiphanies.  But I wouldn’t go on TV, because I know better.